Awake, my sou! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul.
Do not anger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions.Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the rock of my salvation. (2 Ne. 4:28-30.)
My divorce and property settlement had left me bitter and full of self-pity. I knew what the scriptures had to say about forgiveness and love, but I hung on stubbornly to a feeling of having been hard done by, of being the injured party.
I knew in my heart that good things were happening to me, that the Lord was blessing me in my time of trouble. For the first time in my life I had the opportunity to become active in the Church, and to enjoy the fellowship of other members. They reached out to me with love and compassion, and I felt part of a ward-size family.
The Lord was blessing me in other areas of my life, too. I had returned to college, and found satisfaction in developing talents and skills, and in making friends and staying busy.
Yet I found it impossible to let go of the bitterness and hatred that I felt toward the other parties involved in my divorce.
One evening, I stumbled upon the scripture in 2 Nephi and it pierced my soul. I copied it on an index card and put it on my refrigerator, and there it remains, even after two years.
Whenever I feel low, or am inclined to fall again into the trap of self-pity, I pause to read again those wonderful words. They are my anchor. I know that Heavenly Father will never try me beyond my endurance, and that he will always be there in my times of need.
Truly He is the rock of my salvation, and I have much reason to rejoice all the days of my life.