Behold, I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things, if it be wisdom in God that ye should read them, that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men, from the creation of Adam even down until the time that ye shall receive these things, and ponder it in your hearts. Moroni 10:3
The shock of a sudden, surprise hospitalization gave me pause to ponder my 71 years of life as I realized the serious implications of my illness. During the long seemingly endless nights in the dimly lighted hospital room I fine tuned my review of mortal life.
One of my favorite scriptures that I frequently shared as a missionary repeatedly filled my mind. I applied it to me personally. In the midst of my illness I was able to more fully comprehend how merciful the Lord has truly been to me from my early years living with goodly parents, coupled with their teaching me the gospel, and down to the present time.
In this cycle of my life an active network of angels of mercy has compassionately administered to my needs. Outpourings of kind caring from the hospital staff, family, friends and ward members warmly overwhelmed my heart with tender emotions. The cards, flowers, food, phone calls and visits became sobering points of appreciations. Cheerful expressions from one sister brought some balance when caught in her humor that evoked a smile. In a supportive note she wrote: "What do you mean running away for 'a luxurious stay at the Hilton' when our backs were turned? I was surely surprised to find 'your chair' vacant at Relief Society Sunday. You can't stay away from our ward without leaving a great big hole. Much love and prayers."
To ponder upon the Lord's goodness and mercy to me throughout my long life is a heartfelt blessing. Not only has it assisted with my troubled body and mind but helped hasten the healing of my wounded spirit. How humbly and gratefully I realize that my life has been so blessed, sweet and good.
Carolyn Joyner Freebairn, Salt Lake City, Utah